KL Answers Questions
I’m writing this mostly because I didn’t realize how many people are pissed off at me. And to just get things out of the way, I’m not mad or sad by the comments. It’s alright and I understand the frustrations. I’ve been on the other side. I’m also a watcher of things-that-aren’t-in-languages-I-can-understand. It sucks when you’re forced to rely on someone else and they let you down, and for that I’m sorry.
I honestly didn’t mean to disappear. Things just happen. You know how you write “Let’s keep in touch!” in your friends’ yearbooks but then hardly, or sometimes never, speak to them again? It’s kind of like that. You mean well. You want to keep in touch. But things happen in life. Things that you choose to prioritize. Sacrifices are made. Eventually, it’s 5 years later and you’re surrounded by a whole different people and environment. I don’t want to say these are excuses but they kind of are. However, I’d like to think of them as explanations. I’ve been subbing on and off for about 6 years now. It started out as a hobby. It was something I thought was fun. It was something I found joy in. I liked being able to help and share this stuff with other people. It was cool finding strangers with the same things I liked and talked about them.
My projects have always been somewhat small. Thai dramas don’t last for years, only a few months at best. I’ve always subbed those and moved on to something else. I took breaks when I could. LS is different. It was new. I didn’t realize how big the series could’ve been and it seems I took on more than I could handle alone. I was able to do it last season because I had so much free time with finishing school and not having full time job. I enjoyed the series and I was really excited in sharing and discussing each new episodes. I work a lot more now. I have more responsibilities and I push what I thought was less important in my life to the back. Subbing is one of those things I had to scale back on.
At first, I thought I could handle juggling real work and my beloved hobby. I was wrong. Next thing I knew it has been 4 months and there were barely any updates. I appreciate those that stuck by me, waiting and not knowing. I’m sorry I made you wait for so long. But just to clear, I never told anyone that subbing LS was mine and no one else is allowed to do it. If anything, I was glad that someone else is working on it too. I never tried to silence those that wanted to share different sources on where to watch the show. Sure, some might be caught in the spam filter but that wasn’t intentional.
I used to have so much fun catching up on the news relating to the show and the actors. It was fun being active on twitter and discuss things that I liked with others. But I don’t get to do that anymore. I miss that. That’s another sacrifice I had to make. Does it sound like I suck ass at managing my time? Certainly, but that’s something I have to figure out for myself. Unfortunately, it’s at the expense of the fans of the series.
Am I still subbing this? Technically, I still am. I do it little by little. Five minutes worth of an episode here and there. But it’s not the same anymore. You’re not gonna get a within 24 hour update from me. It sucks. It’s frustrating. I’m frustrated that I’m unable to do the things I like anymore. I wish things were different, but they’re not. And I know most of you aren’t here to read about my life, but if you did read the entry then I thank you for your understanding.
I, Alex, have decided to take down the donation box to prevent further misunderstanding.
The donation box's purpose was solely for the server cost and has nothing to do with P'Kuda's works. Please note that she asked 'NOTHING' in return for all the works she's done.
As a gentle reminder, things we say may offend people whether it was done intentionally or not. So let's be mindful of the things we put on the net.